a little weary

When I decided to follow my heart and stay at home, I knew that I would be in for working still, just a different work and I promised myself, my husband, and pretty much the whole world that I would not complain bc, well I wasn't working and that was a pretty hard balance for me when I did.  So this week has really put me to the test.  Ever have one of those weeks where you try to do things right, try your best for you family, but know you fall short? This has been one of those week for me!  It is hard to stay disciplined in every area of your life, but really hard when you are giving it your all.  One of those things is parenting!  I have been really consistent in how I deal with Sam and following through on things.  Even the little things I have really placed as important in his everyday behavior.  This week was a rough one and he was testing each thing pretty much!

Did I ever mention that we want more kids!  Haha.  I have to remind myself on days or weeks like this that I need to enjoy the little years and will look back with only sweet thoughts about it.  When I can't find strength from myself, I have to also turn to God for his help.  I found this from a writer named Carrie Ward from a blog I love to read called 5 Minutes of Faith for Mothers.

"If your head is spinning because you’re sleep deprived, or you wish you could put the activity on pause just long enough to retreat and take a shower, take a deep breath and remember that the physical sacrifices you are making today are for the benefit of some very special people. Hang in there. Ask God for His supernatural strength. Then go wade through the Cheerios, hug your kids, and whisper a thank you to God for this wonderful crazy moment in your life." --Carrie Ward

Our super, super, awesome pastor Missi at church on Sunday prayed for each and every mother and she said to me that God annointed me to have these 2 boys and for me to raise them.  Kinda reminded me that He trusts me of all people to raise these two little guys, and that is a big and super special task.  :)

Cleaning and scrubbing can wait till tomorrow

For babies grow up

We've learned to our sorrow

So settle down cobwebs

Dust go to sleep

I'm rocking my baby 

And babies don't keep