Nonnie

My mom died on December 3, 2002. Cancer. And, since then, I have done so many big things in my life- graduated with my masters, got a rocking job, bought a townhouse, met the most amazing man, and had boogie. It was hard to plan a wedding alone- I have great friends and family who offered to help, but most people have their own lives and it is only a mom who stops their life to figure out what flavor cake you should have. I have been ok with all of that. But, now that boogie is around it is hard at the weirdest times. I don't know if hard is the word, but it is just a sadness that isn't like other times you feel sad- ya get it? The days I get frustrated with him and just need someone to say " I can take him- you go and get some things done" or when the husband and I would like to go on a date, but I stress over asking people and don't want to bother them. This may sound selfish or just childish but I miss my mom because Boogie would have a rocking wardrobe! Pedicures? Yep the same thing. My mom would grab (sneak) my dad's $$ and we would have lunch and get our nails done and I miss that soooooo much! Plus who else can you call to vent to and know that they don't pass judgement on you or turn around and call the next person to share what you just told them? There are 100 things I could write this minute about not having her around. Sure my mom drove me nuts many many days but I would take that back in no time. I guess you can't predict what is ahead for anyone, I would never have thought that she of all people would not be in my life. I have really tried to find blessings in it. I learned to do thing for myself- laundry, cooking, cussing people out- oh wait, I don't do that but my Joanie would! I have learned to rely on myself and I have to say I am really proud of the fact that I CAN do things for myself, I do ask for help, but I can rely on ME. I do get a little paranoid that my dad is going to get sick and now every headache I have it a brain tumor- can you say hypocondriac?? I want her to see what a great man the husband is and how we are both so dumb- like a smart/dumb/silly/love each other lots that she would love him to bits too. I want her to see what a kind heart Boogie has already. I know that I am so lucky to have had 23 years with her and I don't take that for granite. Anyway, not trying depress the blog today, but I really don't talk about how those little things can totally make you cry in the middle of the day, or the middle of the mall, or even in the middle of church (Kelly knows what I am talking about)! I got this quote to put in our room and I heart it...." Sometimes it is the littlest things that take up the most room in your heart".....love that! So enjoy the little things and silly things about people and let them know you love them even on days you don't really like them! One day I will get to see her again, in perfect health and get to see all that she enjoying, protecting, and praying for up there!

PLAY

I love this blog Thirfy Decor Chick, she just makes me so excited about finding things that are cheap and making them new and fun-thanks Sarah!). So, she made some letters for her sons playroom and I thought they were pretty cute, so I decided to give them a try. I got lazy and didn't paint over the white of the letters but I think they turned out fun! Here are a few pictures of them and one with Boogie because he loves his books!

Feeling a Little Crafty

Valentines' Day is coming up and I never really get that excited about it, but I guess now that Boogie is here, I feel more into it. So, in my efforts to be cheap (ahehm, I mean thrifty) I made my own decorations- for the most part. So the first one just came to me at the store! I found these wooden hearts and thought "they would look cute in a jar with candy!" So, I got the hearts, some mason jars, candy, and cute scrapbook paper. I used Modge Podge after tracing the hearts out of the paper and stuck the paper on and then once they dried I put them in the jars with some candy and added some ribbon! I think they are kinda cute and I have to tell the husband if he is going to eat the candy to eat it evenly out the jars! Valentine decor!

Flashback

I just love pictures and I got an AWESOME camera for my bday, but I still can't take pictures like I want- you know the black and white ones where things just look awesome? I will try to find some to attach. Anyway, just wanted to share a cute picture of my little Boogie- before he got into everything in the whole freaking house! Don't worry, I still love him.

A Thrifty Redo

I am excited, I have been totally into being thrifty since I started to stay at home and wonder why I haven't lived like this for longer than that. Yes, I miss going to Starbucks just cause and putting those darn cute things at Target in my bin- can't remember what they were but I just know at the time I had to have them! So, in an effort to make our bedroom more fun and grown up and just a more pulled together look, I got thrify. I read a lot of decorating blogs and then my brain gets ful of about a bazillion things I want to do. So, for all the excitement, here is what I did! First, I got mula (that is money in my spanish) from my papa lew- my dad- for my bday to get a bedspread. After looking and looking, I just didn't feel excited about one. Then one day I saw one on a decorator blog and she got it at Target- yay! Then, it was on clearance when I went to get it!!! SCORE! So I used the other bit of money for some cute throw pillows at Home Goods and a cute wrought iron scroll thing at Hobby Lobby (love) to put over the bed. Got some $5 baskets and used a giftcard courtesy of the husband for some paint at Lowes. We moved the furniture around, cleaned the room- baseboards and all, slapped up the paint and then I got all the picture frames I had around the house and matted and frames some black and white pics! The room redo was around $100 total bc of all my savings and giftcards too! I love how it looks and it is more spacious. Nothing fancy but I like it! I used the same curtains, lamps and storage bins from my old room-viola!!! Now on to figure out what to do on our staircase! OMG, did you need a play by play?

Cupcakes

In attempt to get some cute Valentine's pictures, we made red velvet cupcakes. Sam helped, but was more into licking that icing. Wonder where he gets that from?

Oh My!

I am blogging! Some of these blogs I read are so awesome, people are so great with words and I just can't stop reading! I however, and making an attempt to share things in my life because sometimes I overlook all the blessings I have and want to remember all the small things that go on in our lives. Exciting or not, I am ready to share! And let me say now, I do not spell check nor do I proof often! I think my teacher friends just cringed! Ahem, that is why I am a counselor not a teacher! lol

I made this blog first to just share things about Sam, but I think I might just have a hodge podge of things- cooking-yikes! decorating, and all those random things that I think about on a daily basis!